98. Trickle Truth: The Pain of Gradual Disclosure in Infidelity

In this episode, titled "Trickle Truth: The Pain of Gradual Disclosure in Infidelity," I explore the challenging and often painful experience of trickle truth after infidelity, also known as "drip feeding" the truth or "gradual disclosure."

This episode delves into why trickle truth happens, its impact on both the betrayed and unfaithful partners, and the emotional complexities involved.

I share listener stories and provide compassionate insights into the struggles faced by both parties. Whether you're navigating the aftermath of infidelity or seeking to understand the dynamics of trickle truth, this episode offers validation and empathy.

Key Takeaways:

Understanding Trickle Truth:

• Definition and common reasons for trickle truth.

• The psychological and emotional factors that contribute to gradual disclosure.

Impact on the Betrayed Partner:

• The cycle of anger, sadness, and confusion caused by ongoing revelations.

• The challenge of rebuilding trust amidst constant uncertainty.

The Unfaithful Partner's Perspective:

• The internal conflict and fear of full disclosure.

• The unintended consequences of trying to protect their partner through gradual honesty.

Listener Stories and Reflections:

• Real-life experiences shared by listeners dealing with trickle truth.

• The emotional toll on relationships and the difficulty of finding closure.

💬 Reflection Question:

How can you create an environment in your relationship where honesty and transparency are encouraged and valued, even when the truth is difficult?

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Episode Transcript:

The After The Affair podcast with me Luke Shillings is here to help you process, decide and move forward on purpose following infidelity. Together we'll explore what's required to rebuild trust not only in yourself but also with others. Whether you stay or leave I can help and no matter what your story there will be something here for you.

Let's go. Hello and welcome back to another episode of the After The Affair podcast. You're listening to episode number 98.

Oh I can't believe it we're closing on 100 really quite rapidly at the minute. I'm your host Luke Shillings and this podcast is all about healing and understanding the journey that we take after infidelity. The idea for today's episode has been on my list for a little while now however a recent email from a listener, so thank you for that, has bumped it up the list.

Today I want to talk about trickle truth. This term also known as drip feeding the truth or gradual disclosure refers to the process of revealing the truth about an affair in small incremental portions rather than all at once. It's something that many people experience after infidelity in fact I would argue that it is more common than not and it's something that many people also find themselves struggling with during their journey of healing.

Trickle truth occurs when the full extent of an affair or deception is disclosed piece by piece over time rather than providing all the details up front. The person who has been unfaithful reveals the information slowly often in response to direct questions or when they're caught in inconsistencies. This process can be incredibly painful for the betrayed partner as it prolongs the uncertainty and trust issues already present in the relationship.

Imagine a leaky tap or faucet for those in the United States. Instead of a single burst of water you get a slow steady drip. Each drip might not seem significant on its own but over time it can lead to a flood of emotions, anger, hurt, confusion, and betrayal.

For the betrayed partner every new piece of information can feel like another wound reopening the pain and making it even harder to heal. Trickle truth can happen for various reasons and it's important to approach this topic with compassion and understanding much like all of the other areas that we focus on when talking about betrayal. Sometimes the unfaithful partner might fear the consequences of revealing everything at once and they may worry about the reaction that they'll receive, the potential for the relationship to end, or the pain that their partner will feel.

This fear can be paralysing leading them to withhold information in an attempt to control the fallout. The prospect of facing the full scope of their actions can be overwhelming and they might believe that by revealing the truth gradually they can mitigate the damage. In other cases they might be grappling with their own shame and guilt, struggling to come to terms with their actions and finding it difficult to be fully honest.

Shame can be a powerful deterrent to full disclosure. The unfaithful partner might feel intense self-loathing and fear judgement not only from their partner but also from themselves. This internal conflict can make it challenging to be transparent as they're caught between the desire to be honest and the fear of the consequences that honesty might bring.

Another reason trickle truth occurs is that the unfaithful partner might believe that by revealing only partial truths they are protecting their partner from the full impact of their actions. They might think that by softening the blow or spreading out the information they're being kinder or more considerate. This belief can stem from a desire to avoid causing additional pain or from an attempt to maintain some control over the situation.

However this approach often backfires as the betrayed partner feels manipulated and deceived each time new information comes to light. The piecemeal disclosure can lead to a prolonged sense of betrayal making it difficult for the betrayed partner to trust that they have been told the whole truth. One listener recently shared a story about her experience with trickle truth.

She described how her partner would reveal small details about his affair only when she directly questioned him. Each revelation felt like a new betrayal eroding her trust and making it even more difficult to move forward. She felt like she was constantly waiting for another shoe to drop never fully able to heal because she couldn't be sure she knew the whole story.

This constant state of uncertainty can be incredibly draining and can prevent the betrayed partner from finding closure or moving forwards towards healing. It's as if they're stuck in a perpetual state of suspense unable to fully process their emotions because they never know if another painful truth is just around the corner. For them the trickle truth can be devastating.

Every new piece of information can feel like a fresh betrayal leading to a cycle of anger, sadness and confusion. Imagine being told a story in fragments where each new detail contradicts or changes the previous understanding. It's disorienting and exhausting.

The uncertainty of not knowing if they've been told everything can create this sense of constant vigilance and anxiety. It's like trying to piece together a puzzle with missing pieces never quite able to see the full picture and this incomplete understanding prevents them from making sense of the situation leaving them in a state of perpetual doubt and distress. The prolonged nature of trickle truth can also delay the healing process as a whole.

Just as the betrayed partner begins to come to terms with the affair a new revelation can bring them back to square one. It's as if every time they start to rebuild the foundation is pulled from under them. This repeated opening of wounds can make it difficult to rebuild trust and can lead to feelings of hopelessness and despair.

The betrayed partner may find themselves asking how can I heal when I don't know if I have all the facts. This lack of closure can prevent them from moving forward trapping them in a cycle of pain and uncertainty. One of the most challenging aspects of trickle truth is the erosion of trust because trust once broken is difficult to rebuild and with each new piece of information the betrayed partner may feel that trust is shattered all over again.

It's not just about the affair itself but about the ongoing deception that trickle truth entails. Each revelation can feel like a betrayal of the trust that was being painstakingly rebuilt setting the healing process back significantly. This can lead to questioning not only the past but also the future wondering if they can ever truly know or trust their partner again.

The constant doubt can seep into every interaction causing the betrayed partner to second guess everything even mundane details. This pervasive sense of mistrust can be debilitating making it hard to see a path forward for the relationship. The emotional toll of living in a state of vigilance and uncertainty can also affect other aspects of the betrayed partner's life from their mental health to their relationships with friends and family.

The stress and anxiety can become overwhelming making it difficult to focus on work, maintain other relationships or even take care of themselves. The ripple effects of trickle truth extend far beyond the relationship itself impacting the betrayed partner's overall well-being. From the perspective of the unfaithful partner trickle truth can be a painful experience as well.

They may be caught in a web of their own making feeling trapped by the lies they've told and the partial truths that they've revealed. It's like being ensnared in a tangled web where every move to extricate yourself only makes the situation more complicated. The fear of the consequences of full disclosure can be overwhelming leading to continue revealing the truth in small controlled or at least attempted controlled doses.

This fear often stems from a deep concern about the potential fallout whether it's the end of the relationship, the pain their partner will feel or the loss of their partner's respect and trust. Some unfaithful partners might not fully understand the extent of the damage that trickle truth can cause. They may believe that by revealing the truth slowly they're managing the situation better or giving their partner time to process the information.

This belief can be rooted in a desire to protect their partner from the full brunt of the truth, mistakenly thinking that a gradual disclosure will be less hurtful. However this often leads to further hurt and further mistrust as the betrayed partner feels continuously deceived. The repeated revelations can feel like repeated betrayals each one reopening those wounds and deepening the sense of betrayal.

A recent client explained that he felt paralysed by guilt and fear. He wanted to come clean but was terrified of losing his wife and feared the reaction that she might have. This internal struggle led him on a cycle of hesitation and partial honesty which was completely frustrating and confusing not only for him but for both of them.

The unfaithful partner may oscillate between wanting to be fully honest and fearing the repercussions of that honesty. This hesitation can result in piecemeal disclosures that leave the betrayed partner feeling like they can never get the whole truth, further complicating the path to healing. For the unfaithful partner the guilt and shame associated with their actions can be incredibly burdensome.

They may feel immense remorse for their actions but struggle to face the full consequences of their behaviour. This can lead to a sense of paralysis where they are unable to fully confess and unable to stop the trickle truth coming out. All lies require maintenance.

They might rationalise that they're sparing their partner further pain not realising that the ongoing deception is in many ways more damaging than the complete confession would have been in the first place. This situation creates a dynamic where both partners are stuck in a cycle of mistrust and uncertainty. The unfaithful partner's fear and guilt prevent a full disclosure while the betrayed partner's need for the truth goes unmet leaving both feeling trapped and unable to move forward.

It's a situation fraught with emotional complexity where the desire to protect and the fear of consequence intertwine in ways that make healing and resolution even more difficult. While trickle truth is undoubtedly painful it's important to approach the situation with compassion and understanding for both partners. The unfaithful partner may be grappling with their own emotional turmoil, guilt and fear which can make it challenging to be fully transparent.

Meanwhile the betrayed partner is navigating a complex landscape of emotions as well trying to rebuild their sense of security and trust. It's crucial for both partners to communicate openly about their feelings and their needs. The betrayed partner should feel empowered to ask questions and seek clarity whilst the unfaithful partner should strive to be as honest and transparent as possible.

This process requires patience and empathy from both sides as they work together to heal and rebuild their relationship. For those struggling with trickle truth seeking support from a professional can be incredibly beneficial. This type of guidance can help both partners navigate the difficult emotions and challenges that arise during this time.

It's a journey that requires time effort and a willingness to face the truth no matter how painful it might be. Before I wrap up I'd like to leave you with a question to reflect on. How can you create an environment in your relationship where honesty and transparency are encouraged and valued even when the truth is difficult? Think about this question as you navigate your journey and consider how open communication can help foster truth, trust and healing.

If you found this discussion helpful please share it with others who might benefit and as always I'm here to support you on your path. Thank you for joining me on this episode of the After The Affair podcast. It's important to remember that healing is a journey and it's okay to take time.

Take the time you need and seek the support you require along the way. You can do that in part by working with me. You can reach out directly luke at lifecoachluke.com. Schedule a free 30-minute discovery call where we can discuss your situation to better understand how I can help you move forward.

We can create a plan for what the next three to six months looks like of your healing journey and then we can put the pieces in place to help you execute that plan. You can visit my website lifecoachluke.com or you can email me directly at luke at lifecoachluke.com. Whether you're dealing with trickle truth or any other aspect of infidelity know that you're not alone and until next time take care of yourself and each other and I'll speak to you all next week.